A while back I came across a book and I’m saying a while but it could’ve also been a year ago with the most amazing sprayed edges, written in English by a Dutch author and the description sounded really nice. Normally I’m not a description kind of girl because a description could be made of the best part of the book while the whole book isn’t that impressive.

This book is called Everdying and has been written by Jill Verheyden; the Dutch one is called Nimmerdood.

With rain coming down in sheets and having to ride my bike to a monthly movie night with my friends has me in a bad mood but not bad enough that I cancel all together. Soaked by the rain, not seeing much because of the heaviness of it I do see a truck coming straight at me at high speed; almost as if it’s coming at me on purpose. There is no getting round to it, this truck will hit me and that will be the death of me and it was, it hits the back of my bike and drags me into a river where I drown.

It’s been almost a year since my death date, a year of learning and training with a group of 7 teenagers / very young adults for what comes next. The last bit will be seven trails we have to go through, at the last one only 4 can succeed. All seven of us get some kind of chaprevaan; someone that will mentor us through these trails and keep a tight schedule so we’re always where we’re supposed to be. What we’ve been training for is becoming a Soulveiler; someone that watches over and protects a human from dying. It’s kind of a second chance at living although you’re not quite human you’re not immortal either. You just posses the best fighting skills, extra speed, you have wings (that aren’t on display) when you need to and heal rather quickly.

I (Kahlen) have the same death date as Daniel; we’ve had something to bond over and became best friends, I know I can call him an ally in the oncoming trails, he’ll watch out for me. Luna is the only other girl but, she has put her walls up and prefers to do things alone. Rafael is the alpha, at least he looks like it. He knows my secret and keeps calling me Ethne which I hate because I don’t want anyone finding out. I think I can trust him.

The trails are gruesome, the first couple of trails are those of the mind. Injecting you with something that makes you hallucinate and quite frankly become scared out of your mind but still have to find a solution to what the assignment is. In between trials I’ve become aware of the fact that I’m the only one with a room that is secluded from the rest, I have anger issues and have broken many things in this bedroom, only to find notes that are written by me, but I can’t remember writing them.

The deal is, you can only walk this road once that’s the rule but when everything finally clicks it seems I’ve been walking this road many times now which should be impossible. People are trying to keep me save whilst one person within this institute is killing me within every lifetime I get, but I always come back.

I don’t want to spoil the human world experience part, the only thing I can say is; I don’t get the end. The end was so weird and unfinished that I have questions. I did enjoy reading it but not overly so and because of the unfinished end, I’ll only be giving this a ⭐⭐.5 star rating.